Taking control and Letting go

In my previous post, I mentioned that we are hoping to be pregnant in the near future, hence waiting for a family portrait. I got to thinking, and our family sure is going through a lot of changes, and I am personally making a lot of changes in my own life. I decided I want to document those changes here in our blog.


As many of you know, we are have been trying to have our second child for the last 3 and a half years. Wow, how time sure can pass by! Its incredible to me how I can recall past events and remember thinking "Am I pregnant?" during the time. One that comes to mind was when Noah was 18 months old and he had an x-ray to test for pneumonia. The technician asked me to join him in the x-ray room and asked me if there was a chance I was pregnant. There was, but my current baby needed me and I didn't care. Its memories like these that make me realize how LONG we have been wanting this second child, and also make me grateful for the amazing, perfect, most blessed child G-d did give us. I have learned to let go of this part of my life, leave this in G-ds hands. No more drugs, no more tests, no more artificial anythings anymore. I am letting go of the things I cant control, appreciating what I have, and taking charge of the things I CAN control.


This leads my to my next big change....my health!! Thanks to the guidance of my incredible sister, Dr. Elana Gelman :) I have taken control of my life through the parts of my body which I CAN control. There is a whole different part of my health which I cant control (my positive results from my BRCA testing done 1 year ago), but I can control what I eat and my exercise routine and I believe in turn that may even control what happens with those BRCA results. Stay positive, right? Anyway, the past four months for me have been focused on eating well and exercising. I run 2-3 times a week, and go on walks and do workout videos at home throughout the week as well. My little workout buddy loves to do the videos with me! I have lost 12 pounds so far and so excited to see where I can go with this. I hope to reach my goal weight by my 28th birthday (August 27th)!


Last but not least, I went back to school this January. I work part time and study part time. 3 classes this past semester and too many more to go; all before I can even apply to the Masters program. Im really excited for what my future holds as a Speech Pathologist and thoroughly enjoying school and everything I'm learning. I feel extremely lucky for this opportunity. That being said, being a student again while being a wife, a mom, and having a part-time job can be HARD! So, I'm staying positive,trying my best to balance it all, and just doing my best while trying to be the best me I can be!


To conclude this post, I want to give a HUGE thanks to my hubby. Without him, none of this would be possible. Adam, thank you for:
*Loving me, even when I'm acting nuts
*Entertaining Noah so I can get school work done, housework done, whatever it is I want to get done, done
*Always making sure I have something healthy to eat
*Giving me that extra push to go workout on those lazy Sunday afternoons
*Talking things through with me, over and over and over again
*Laughing at me and knocking me back into reality when I'm crying over the "A" I wanted, but didn't get
*Working hard for our family
*Loving Noah and being an AMAZING Dad
*Most of all, just being there to laugh with, dream with, plan with, re-plan with, cry with, and live my life with